A Nightingale In A Golden Cage

It's paralyzing, this feeling of utter loneliness and this wave of sadness that just hit me. I cannot explain where it comes from. One moment, it's not there, and I'm fine. And the next moment, I am dead weight and don't have the energy to move from where I am. The word "debilitating" comes to mind.

And then the second wave hits - and my heart aches so fiercely for something I cannot have, something I have no knowledge of.  Or experience with.

I want to be held, I want to feel loved, I want to feel like someone cares. But I don't feel anything save for gravity's hatred.